10 Years Later

When I was in college I dreamed life would be better. I tried, I really did, but I don't think I made any progress. But I have learned that life is unfair and can be cruel. However, I am still blessed in many ways. I just wish I weren't so lonely...

The Good Life

Here is my list of what it would take to lead a good life:

1. Finding the right woman to share my life with
2. Being able to generate passive income / Take care of my family & close friends
3. Being healthy - This probably should be #1
4. Doing work that can help others and benefit society
5. Raising healthy and happy kids

:)

July 4th

Thank you to all the men and women in the US Armed Forces for their bravery and sacrifice! And thank you for giving us another day off to drink, BBQ and hang with friends watching fireworks and eating ice cream.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XtMy5IBmX7E

Weddings

Just came back from an oceanfront wedding. The scenery could not have been more perfect. At first, I didn't want to go because of the cost. But seeing my high school buddy so happy was worth it. My 3 other buddies who also attended were basically married as well. I felt a bit alone but realized that hey, I'm a late bloomer and my time will come soon enough. No rush. Congrats to my main man Johnny.

Worst Moments in Life

1. When you see your father cry and realize like you, he is flawed and doesn't always know what to do.

2. When you realize everything you ever believed in (i.e. friendship, relationships, the world) is Bullshit and you have to change, maybe for the worst.

The Real Treasure is Inside You

Inner Game

People always say, "Be yourself. Have confidence." What a bunch of useless garbage. Isn't it obvious that when are yourself and things don't work out, that you NEED to CHANGE? Because being "yourself" doesn't work. If it did you wouldn't have the problem. What we need to say is "Be your BEST SELF." If you don't like something about yourself, take steps to make change.

It is not like I can just go to the grocery store and pick up a pack of confidence on the shelf. Confidence comes from doing, from have competence in a particular area. It takes endless repetition and PATIENCE.

Dear J

It has been a long time but nothing has changed. Every day I wake up and think of you, but nothing but feelings of resentment and sadness surface. I was so very wrong about you. You are one of the most inconsiderate and selfish people I have ever encountered. But can I really blame you? You are phyically attractive so guys will go out of their way to do anything for you. And that is why you will never change. I liked you because I thought you were different but you are not. All you ever do is take and take. Worse then breaking my heart you have made me a cynic. And for that I do NOT forgive you.

Frustrated

I think sexual furstration is making me mean-spirited, short-tempered and cyncial. So what's so bad about paying for it besides the obvious health risks?

Love and Other Drugs

The ending...typical Hollywood romance. But Mr. Viagra pusher, will you be there for her when she doesn't even know who you are and doesn't want to have sex with you anymore? The old guy he met at the convention...he wasn't being a cold-hearted bastard. He was probably the most giving, caring soul in the world. But after 30 years of giving he was empty and tired. You wanna help her... be friends. Don't ruin your life to help others. When I was younger all I wanted to do was give and help others. Now I realize it has done nothing for me. People are who they are. Sure, people can change but its extremely hard. Like people who hit big with that $2 scratcher. It happens but I haven't met anyone or know anyone who knew someone who hit it big. I think if I want to witness a changed person I have to look in the mirror...and I am not even sure if that is possible. Like shooting half-court shots?

Uma Thurman

So wierd and hot at the same time....

Fulfilled?

Time passes by quickly when you live a life of monotomy...How many out of you out there enjoy, no, love your job? Are really fulfilled by it? No wonder people drink, smoke and do drugs...